Today Jessie returns to work for at least half the day after being out of commission and driving to and from doctor's appointments for check ups. I have spent the past few weeks with her almost every day. I got to liking it again. It's been a long while since I felt that way. I still got weary and had to excuse myself home fairly often. But her guilting me as reduced dramatically. 

I am so scared it's all for naught. But. Baby steps.