Internal locus of control is a good thing

So you were upset

About me telling you that I wanted to jump into the technical communication course

And telling you the cost

And you said you felt kept out of the loop

But because I've been talking about it this whole time I didn't feel that way

Also I made the decision to "just do it"

As I was driving home

But realized that it was an IMPULSE

That I didn't research my options well enough beforehand

And that I tend to get impulses/urges to take action when I feel like other things are out of my control (i.e. money, some aspects of us, my future)

The impulse to take action is my way of regaining control over what I believe is controllable

It re-establishes identity I think is getting lost

or threatened

or security

safety whatever "good" thing is threatened

The end.